Thanks Carlos!!!
xoxoxo
Jillian Foxxx
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I just posted NOVEMBER_2009 and DECEMBER_2009. Both galleries have a mixture of stuff..ENJOY
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LISTEN .... I am sharing my past and answering some questions asked by some of my readers. Yes I did go through a couple of years that were not so glamorous but the past eight years of my life have never been better.
There are so many people in the world who are living in their own private hell. My life is better than I ever imagined it would be and everything I went through in my past has made me into the person I am today. If my story can strike a cord with even one person, who, as a result decides to get sober and turn their life around THEN it was worth telling my story.
I am NOT ashamed of my past. Addiction, unfortunately, is part of sooooooooooo many people's lives.....more than you know. Alot of people keep it a secret and eventually just die of their disease. I am incredibly grateful for my life today.
For those of you out there who have a problem with my story ... I DON'T CARE. Who are you to judge me or anyone else?
xoxo Jillian Foxxx
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These pics are actually in one of my galleries but I haven't posted any pics at all lately on the entry part of this site. I need a little EYE CANDY xoxoxoxoxo Jillian Foxxx
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After leaving a ten year marriage in 1999 I moved to Las Vegas so we could have some space between us. I don't know that this was a very good idea in that I kept my mind focused on other things like work, the gym, and swinging. I turned into an internet junkie and used particular websites to meet people who were also interested in swinging. I was only interested in being with other women since it was the side of the lifestyle I never had the chance to experience when I was with my husband. Drugs and alcohol kept he and I cooped up inside our home so we were only able to find other men to join us as a 3 sum. My husband was not bi sexual by no means but he did like watching me fuck other guys. I have to tell you ..... I HATED doing it. It felt so wrong to me. I built a huge resentment because he was constantly having his sexual fantasy fulfilled and my fantasy of being with another woman NEVER happened. We were always trying but back in 1999 computers were not in everyone's household and we used telephone chat lines to find people interested in the same thing we were. We did meet a few couples but the women were always disappointing so it never materialized.
After moving to Vegas I experienced the RED ROOSTER and COUPLES OASIS swing clubs and discovered that the clubs were the best way to meet hot females. My stay in Vegas lasted until January 2000, only eight months total. My youngest son was still living with my husband in Southern California and he was wanting to come live with me. Las Vegas is NOT a good place to raise children in my opinion so it was time for me to go back to California. When I went back my husband let me move back into the house but I had to stay in the spare bedroom. You see, while I was in Vegas trying to forget, he was pissed that I left and he started seeing other women. One night he actually brought one of his girlfriends into the house while I was there. I could over hear them giggling and carrying on in the back bedroom and it infuriated me. The realization that our marriege was truly over had finally hit me.
I began using drugs (meth amphetamine) and drinking alcohol ALOT and started on a six month binge that spiraled down hill and came real close to killing me. You see I was feeling sorry for myself and my self esteeme was out the window. I just didn't care if I lived or died.
I look back on that time of my life and I just don't understand how I could have let myself get that bad. My poor son, during all this
time, had to watch his pitful mother go on her path of destruction. The following two years were rockie. After four relapses and two six week rehabs I FINALLY got sober on May 10 2002. I entered a third rehab. This time it was for 90 days instead of 6 weeks.
to be continued...............................
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