I am sorry I have not been writing lately. I have not had anything exciting to write about and I have been a little uninspired lately. I am only human and do get "down" on occassion but I did manage to shake myself out of it last week and now I am hitting the gym hard and WOW ...THAT's exactly what I needed! THEN I logged onto my blog here and noticed all the comments you all wrote under my last entry way back on January 28th.
LETS START WITH THIS COMMENT:
I have a sincere question for you Jillian.
How old were you when you first fell in love?
And what happened to break you two apart?
REAL LOVE? I was 32 years old when I was in a healthy loving relationship and married for the second time. I had already had three sons, ages four, nine and eleven.
Before that I had no idea what love was. I married the first time because I felt an obligation I guess. STUPID stupid stupid I was very young. I was raised in an old school family where girls were expected to find a good man to take care of them right out of high school, start having babies, and live a similar life to my parents. My Mom and Dad are still alive and married to each other by the way. I left home at 17 because I did not get along with my mother at the time and I just had to get away. I moved in with a guy I had been dating since I was 15 years old. I was a kid and had absolutely NO IDEA what love was or even who I was as a person. I didn't know what I could or couldn't put up with in a relationship at all. But how does anyone know unless you have experience in such matters. THIS fact is why I tell my youngest son ALL THE TIME that the more girls he dates the more he will know what behaviors he can or can not live with.
Life has to have priorities, which will tend to change as specific goals are met. If I could turn back the clock knowing what I know now, I would have concentrated on a career so I was able to live ON MY OWN and experience life as a single and financially independent female.
I left my second marriage after 10 years. Drugs and alcohol played a huge part and of course after dabbling in the Swinging Lifestyle into our fifth year we started to damage our marriage beyond repair. Five years of following this path of destruction I could not stand it any longer and left in May 1999.
Whew......this is a mouthful of stuff already. I need to take a break and talk more about THIS later.
STAY TUNED IN FOR CONTINUED..........
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A week ago I came down with a little bit of a sore throat so I have been laying low for the past week. Laying low was just a little hard considering I was booked for an INTERNET SHOOT on Friday January 22nd. Call time was 1 PM and we did not finish until after 7 PM. It was a little longer than an average shoot but I did 4 small solo masturbation scenes and then 20 minutes of boy - girl video. I was hoping to be able to hide my tummy scar with garters but by the time we got to the boy-girl scene I just performed totally naked. Everybody knows I've had the surgery so why hide it? It really doesn't look that bad .... I guess we will all find out after the scenes are released.
www.anilos.com is the web site. My scenes should be up in maybe 30 days? Naughty America is that fast...we'll see. I'll keep checking and will let everyone know when I see it.
Saturday morning I woke up feeling as though I had been in a train wreck. My hip abductors and entire bottom half of my back were KILLING ME so much that I had to sleep in my spare bedroom where the mattress is way softer than my tempurpedic. Last night I was finally able to sleep on my tempurpedic......YES!!!!
I gotta run to the gym. xoxoxoxo Jillian Foxxx
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Happy New Year everybody!
I have not bothered to even check my web site until this morning and would like to respond to a couple of comments that are listed on my last post.
My sons are all grown adults. My youngest son is 25 years old and he is the only son who is aware of my profession at this time. He is a California kid and therefore VERY open minded sexually. Here in California PORN is a business that saturates this particular area. No one really gets too surprised when they hear of a person working in the adult industry. My son and I are like best friends. He loves me UNCONDITIONALLY as I do him and his brothers too of course. My career has no affect what so ever on my relationship with my family. I am still a great mom, daughter, sister, and friend to everyone who exists in my life and THAT is what matters. I not only try to never hurt anyone else on a daily basis, but I will try to help another person (or animal) who may be in need when ever I can. I am careful on who I reach out to however because there are people out there who will take advantage of "giving" people like me.
New Years Eve for me was spent as I always spend it.... in bed by 10:30 PM (as usual). I do not drink alcohol. There is NOTHING at all in this entire world that will ever make me crave a drink or a drug. That part of my life is behind me but never forgotten.
xoxoxo
Jillian Foxxx
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I wish everyone a blessed day with your loved ones.
Christmas Eve I spent with my youngest son. We went to DUKES Restaurant in Huntington Beach for an early dinner as we do every year. Today he is spending the afternoon and having dinner with his father and I will be mingling with a group of recovering alcoholics at my best friend's house where they will have alot of good food. I have been spending Christmas day in this exact way for the past seven years....... with my "other" family since the rest of my real family is over 3,000 miles away.
xoxoxo
Jillian Foxxx
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You are climbing deeper in your dark hole as far as I am concerned. I DO NOT GIVE A RATS ASS about what you think.
"Stop dressing up like one of Catwoman's stooges from Batman...Men covet what they see...and they don't see nylon clad, boot-strapped transvestites with chains and whips...unless of course they live in North Hollywood and who the fuck lives there." ???
SO WHEN DID I START DRESSING LIKJE THAT?>?>?
I did not get my implants for you or any one else but MYSELF. They are a huge self esteeme booster for me, which is something you are obviously lacking.
If my photos are so bad then why are you here? I am curious as to what you look like. I am guessing that you are more than likely OVER WEIGHT and without any kind of self esteeme what so ever. I do know one thing for sure and that is that you are a very selfish and rude person and I feel sorry for anyone who has to deal with you on an everyday basis.
I am NOT changing any thing so you may as well stop reading my blog and looking at my terrible photos.
Jillian Foxxx
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